A new start. Skip the bullshit, and pull down the curtains.

I didn't think I'd need this again. But this time, it's not a little gallery of makeshift art. I claim this space to be my pond. A pond I can pour everything--my soul, my thoughts, and my ambitions...my sorrow--into, and not worry about its appearance to others. I don't need to dress it up, polish it head to toe, and present it in a spotlight. No-fucking-sir! It's me time. Sure, I don't have nearly as bad problems as many others, but who says I'm strong enough to take them as it is?

Now for a venting session:
I hold back to be polite, to respect others as much as I can. Is it too much to ask for people to be gentlemen and ladies? All I see, cocky upperclassmen thinking they're the shit (no lie, they really fucking do) when all they have is a huge ego with nothing to show. Think you guys are so tough? You guys are all talk, morons. Loud mouths make you look like fucking monkeys you stupid fucks. Got damn males can't control their testosterone, frickin imbecils. And you girls flirt with every possible guy you can. Cool it down, you're too touchy to be trusted. Changing sides in the blink of an eye, you girls can't make up your fucking mind. Give us guys straight answers, don't dance around it after one thing and act like nothing happened. And take my advice, keep your venting in a blog like this, b/c I'm sure it's better for you. Just slapping it everywhere you go makes you seem like a drama queen who can't control herself, as well as depressing yourself. And c'mon give me a break, I gave up something close to me for you. I thought you'd make the effort to get close to me; I seriously thought we could really click. But if we're never going to take the time, to make the effort, how is it going to work? You're making me go through the same frustration, the same uncertainty, the same PARANOIA AS BEFORE. It's driving me CRAZY.

Don't get me started on what I used to be able to do..I got lazy, it's my fault anyway. My willpower to get things done, *poof*
Oh, the things I'd do to get it back.

Enough for the first day, I've just about exhausted myself. Time to do homework I'd say.

FOSHIZZLE MAH PEN-NIB-IZZLE!

My tablet's pen-nib-izzle, to be exact;

I'm like really terrible at keeping this blog alive, due to my HORRIBLE memory keeping x]

I don't ask you to forgive me, I deserve all your "YOU NEVER UPDATE" 's when they come *cough but no one comes anyway so I'm SAFEEEE cough*

Anyways, update :D (Lloyd and Sheena from ToS) :


^Sketch of Lloyd from a freaking awesome game titles "Tales of Symphonia" for Gamecube; DONE COMPLETELY BY TABLETTTT :DDDDDD Pose is from looking at the game's cover art though :]


^I was feeling so great about the previous sketch that I colored it AND added Sheena, another awesome character from ToS; I like how my Lloyd drawing turned out better..but I think I did okay on Sheena! Eyes are a little whack though x]

Fasho. Until next time! Hasta luego

It's that time of year again!

Winter Break.

Ahh, how I love it. A time when I can just sit back, relax, and sit with my thoughts stirring up ideas and weaving intricate patterns.

This year, it will be a time to catch up on my artwork!

I know, I know.

"Calvin always says he's going to post something soon, but he never does! He's such a big fat liar! >:[ "

Well, academics come before my artwork; you don't want me to be unemployed in the future and live on the street do you? I think not. However, I do think I owe you an apology for not showing anything new. I'll get right on it.


Have a great winter break everyone!

Guess who's back back back, back again -gain -gain

It's a me, Mari--naw it's just me Calvin :]

School has been taking up all of time recently, I'm not even exaggerating.
BUT, I'm trying to learn how to be more proficient in doing my work so that I will have more time to work on my graphic design and artwork.

Right now I don't have anything big to show you, but I'll probably post up something soon :3




The cake is a lie The cake is a lie The cake is a lie

Probably going to system restore

My desktop has been acting up. Seriously. The CD-ROM drive doesn't operate properly and can't read any disks, I get error messages everytime I turn on the computer, and now my router doesn't work properly at all either!

As a result, I've backed up most of my main and necessary files on an external hard drive (the 250 GB Seagate FreeAgent drive works wonders :P), and will probably resort to a system restore.

Starting FRESH. I'll need to install photoshop and my computer games all over again..which will be troublesome. In addition, this will slow down my production of art...as well as my gaming sessions! :[[[[

Hopefully I MIGHT, just maybe, fix a the wireless internet problem at least...

To make matters worse, school is starting school! My sister needs wireless internet for communication with her clubs and as well as resources!!! Oh boy, this is going to be frustrating...

Anyway, that is all! Sorry about this! Don't be surprised when this blog turns into a graveyard for a bit xP

Whoamygoshnopostsinalongtime

Umm I've been busy with a lot of stuff lately okay?! Don't look at me like that!!!! <.<

Here's an update, my rice cake transformer thingy! PLATERAIDER!:



Bwahahaha I'm a dork.

:/

Head's hurting, tired, lonely, paranoid, pessimistic, and frustrated. Such describes my day.

I don't know entirely understand why I'm not feeling well today; it's sort of a mystery to be unraveled myself. There was nothing to even piss me off or upset me today, too.

I just felt that I needed to update this since I've been busy with stuff lately. New mini-project in the works as well.

Happy Belated Birthday to Justin Tran!

This is late by one day, but hey, better late than never right?

Happy belated birthday Justin, sorry I forgot about your party :[.

I'll give you part of your present on AIM.